Thursday, September 2, 2010

reflections. like the mulan song but less sappy.

i'm writing this ahead of time
just in case hurricane earl
blows me away and you never
have to? get to?
hear from me again.
thanks to everyone who commented
yes,
i read every. single. comment.
are you kidding me?
that's the best part!
and yes,
i will comment back to
every. single. one of you.
so you just wait.
it might be longer than usual
if earl decides to steal my electricity.
but nonetheless, i'll be there soon.

here's just a tad bit of penny cuteness
to brighten your day like it did mine.
i felt like this picture depicts
how i've been feeling these last days
here in lejeune
before i move back to texas with my family
during Lover's deployment.
(that was a freakin long sentence)
happy.
sad.
reflective.
lonely.
excited.
anxious.
solemn.
peaceful.
finished.
my most favoritist friend here
wrote a post recently
and dedicated it to me
to help me through this time
because her husband just returned
from the same deployment.
you can read it here.
but i'm warning you.
tears.
again.
it meant so much to me
to hear the words she wrote.
she'll never fully understand how grateful i am
for that letter.
many of you have wondered
how you can help
other friends who are going through
deployments.
and for answers,
i want to refer you to this blog post.
she sums up all of my feelings
perfectly.
warning though, she's blunt.
but that's why i love her.
specifically the section labeled "do help me."
have a lovely weekend new and old friends.
and thank you again
to all my sparkly new followers over there on the left.
you guys make me smile.

31 comments:

Kim said...

ahhhhh, I wish I was going to Texas with you. Then I could take your kids without you asking me to or I'd bring you dinner just because.... and maybe I'd give you some chocolate since I know that's what you want most anyway :-)

Nina @ Momma Go Round said...

Oh I'm so glad to hear you are going to be with your family while Lover is gone! I can't even begin to imagine how difficult it must be to have him gone and I'm so glad you will have your family for support.

You rock girl. Stay strong!

Shaunaaaaaaa said...

your up lateeeeeeeeeeee! Love you friend! Wish I could help ya with it all

Carla said...

Happy SITSDAY!! (A day late, but you have to allow for Mormon Standard time after all) Stay safe in this hurricane weather. Blessings to you all as you miss your sweetie:).

Making It Work Mom said...

Good Luck with the hurricane!
Here is a hurricane story to make you laugh. I was about 8 months pregnant with my first child and my husband and I were hunkering down for our first hurricane in a a our FIRST house (we were living in Wilmington, NC). There wasn't a ton of food in the house - but I mean there was only two of us. I knew that there was a rather large bag of m&ms in the house, but during the hurricane I couldn't find them. Several weeks later when I was cleaning I found the almost empty bag hidden in a book case. My husband had hidden the chocolate from his very pregnant wife! I always always bring this up to him!!

missy said...

It's "funny" how you can come to know someone through their blog. We've never met, but I feel like I know you and could easily start chatting with you as if we have been friends forever. Although yuo might say, "Um, excuse me, but I don't know you..." anyway. I've thought about and prayed for you and your little family and your Lover this week. Just wanted you to know. I'm glad you mentioned Earl. I was watching the news last night and wondered if that would be near you all.

LisaDay said...

You are right. That picture offers all those emotions. Good luck with Earl.

LisaDay

Ashleylee said...

I saw your Blog on the SITS website (Happy SITS day...a day late:), and I love your BLOG...I had to force myself to go to bed and stop reading your past posts! So easy to read, and many made me smile, and even more made me actually Laugh Out Loud! Keep it up, your blog is an inspiration to me!

Summer said...

You are an amazing woman. I couldn't even imagine what you will go through but I can tell you are a great mom and wife and you have a lot of supporters! I'm giving you a great big hug and smooch all the way from California!

ruthy ann said...

Boo. :( I remember when my dad was deployed growing up...it's not a fun feeling. sending warm fuzzies your way.

Gillian said...

Lovely photo. Lovely words. I adore how you present your blog like a poem.

Losing Brownies said...

How long will your husband be deployed? I can only imagine how hard it is for the kids, especailly the tiny ones. I hope he's able to communicate in some way and isn't deployed in a place where he can't contact you at all.

Beka said...

My hubby and I just started our first deployment too! I'm your newest follower! I'm going to try to play catch up and read more of your post. xoxo

cornflakegirl74 said...

Best of luck with the hurricane and thanks for introducing me to some wonderful new blogs. Hope this finds you well in body and in mind and I will continue to keep your family in my thoughts and prayers. XOXO

Froggylady said...

I love this picture. It really is all of those emotions rolled up into one penny coated ball of sweetness.

Kerin Lee said...

Now I'm curious as to where you live because Earl is suppose to be hitting my home state NC, I recently moved to SC though and it's suppose to miss us.

Thank you for commenting back. I replied to your spider comment on my blog. In case you don't see it, I will say again here... I woke up to find that BIG spider next to my face. No more floor napping for me, I tell ya that's some traumatizing stuff!

I also am now a follower because you are just that awesome. Yup. :)

Kerin Lee said...

I replied again. Eww.

Jen said...

Oh my goodness, that letter your friend wrote you. It was beautiful.

I just can't hold back the tears.

I can't imagine what you are feeling right now.

I know I am new around here but I hope you will exempt my HUGS. :)

Julia said...

awww... sending you lots and lots of hugs!!!! i can't imagine how hard that has to be.

so you're going back to stay with family while he's gone?? that's good. how long is he gone for? getting to my facebook stuff now.

so glad we met!! emailing you now!

The WholeFamDamily said...

what the..how come i didn't see this one?

that pic needs to be blown up and preserved for all time, the ponies are just too precious.

all we can do is help support each other, all of our circumstances are different, i like that Bonnie pointed that out, it doesn't matter how long/frequent it just sucks and we all try to get through it as best we can. I hope you hold onto Michele's words of truth and comfort, i thing she said it perfectly.

I luv u, and i really DO pray for you AND i want to "de-follow" so i can follow AGAIN and be sparkly this time...;)

WhisperingWriter said...

Have you blown away? I hope not.

People always ask me if I plan on moving back with my family while my husband is gone. I say no. I love my family but a year with them would drive me crazy.

CK said...

Prayers for you and your family ;)

emilysuze said...

So I've been a silent blog stalker for ages and figured it was about time to comment on your awesomeness.

Because you are awesome. An awesome mom, an awesome military wife, and an awesome blogger.

Thank you for being so open and willing to share your life with all of us out here in the bloggy world.

Deployments suck, suck, suckity suck. Thinking good thoughts for you and sending warm fuzzy vibes to your side of the continent.

Anastasia said...

Well it looks like Earl won't take away your electricity! Sorry for the reasons, but super glad to have you in Texas. ;)

terrid614 said...

well, i think by now you are out of the hurricane issues!
thats awesome you are going to be near your family while the hubs is gone!!! i know it's not the same as having him there, but you will have love and support from those who love you! (and we of course will ALL be here, cheering you on!)well, i am off to read your friend's blog posts! have a riduclously fun sunday! xo

melaina said...

i'm a new visitor from SITS, and i love your blog! My husband is a former Marine (he was a reservist stationed here in Texas)and so is my brother (he was active stations in 29 Palms). i never had to be apart from my husband during our marriage since his only deployment was before we dated...so i can't exactly imagine what it must feel like. But you have my support and prayers. And thank you and Lover for your sacrifice to our country.

AngiDe said...

Beautiful photo. Beautiful post. Hope you survive Earl :0)

xo

gigi123 said...

Awww how ironic, my husband is at Lejeune and left this past weekend. Deployments aren't easy ... I'm active duty AF so with my job it keeps me busy so much so the days will fly by .... until the weekend when I have some down time :(
Have a safe trip to Tx.

Jen said...

I am so grateful to your lover and you. The amazing things military and their families do is amazing.
The people who get deployed fight of our rights and fight for the people they love.
Families sacrifice everything because they know it means the world to the people who do go.

I am a child of a father,uncle, grandfather and godfather who are all part of the Canadian Armed Forces. I can understand a little bit what it's like to say goodbye to them for a long period of time, wondering if they will be ok and knowing you are missing a piece of your heart.

I am a new follower of your blog but I am here to listen to everything you go through. Good luck and I wish you all the best

Jen

Ayanna said...

Thank your hubby for protecting me and family, and know that I'm sending you and your loved ones my blessings.

Maranda said...

Those are definitely great words of advice from both of your friends. It's hard...but you can do this. You will be much stronger for it in the end. And your hero...he will be SO proud of you!

That's awesome that you are moving back to Texas. I did that last year when The Hubble deployed and will do it again when he deploys...next year I think.

Good luck to you and your family! xoxoxo