I don't really have anything special to say about this picture, I just liked the way it looked this morning as I made the lunches and I thought to myself, I bet the rest of the WORLD would like to see what mornings are like for me as I prepare all the grub.
I don't usually make a lunch for Penny unless I know we'll be out during lunch time and I don't wanna listen to him scream and then have to buy him nasty nuggets or something.
Miah's PreK doesn't eat lunch there since he's a morning class guy but he likes me to make his lunch and have it in the fridge for him when he gets home so he can just grab it. I think it makes him feel big.
And yes, I cut Koko, Miah and Penny's sandwiches EVERY day in special shapes.
Because I love it.
And I know they do too :)
(Jake's too embarrassed to bring dinosaur sandwiches to lunch...who knew?!)
(keep in mind I had Penny with me to help plead my case of insanity)
(opens door with a smile and cheery voice)
How are you?!!??!!
(immediately starts to cry uncontrollably, an ugly cry, lip shaking, face red, neck blotchy, Penny's crying, grabbing for me, I'm half naked, too weak to pick him up from the table, I'm apologizing, Penny is going crazy because the Doctor had to pick him up to help, my paper sheet that covers my nudity rips in half, crotch exposed, I'm crying more now, fumbling for some coverage, tears are wetting my shirt, Penny is trying to pull my face off in total hysteria, Doctor is trying to help but just making things worse, and then I finally open my mouth...)
I'M NOT GOOD!!!!
I think she decided right then and there that I was a wreck.
She insisted I start my Zoloft TODAY.
Not when the baby gets here.
Not when I start to feel PPD,
(Did I tell you last week I was a wreck too and the doc prescribed Zoloft for me to have "just in case" after the baby was born?)
I guess I needed it a little sooner than planned.
She also decided I needed an end in sight to help with my depression.
She scheduled the induction for the 16th.
It's not the 13th but I still love it already.
The 1st is My Lover
The 6th is Me.
Put them together...
and you get baby A!!!
Oh and I'm changing my counter to reflect the induction.
Cuz I don't wanna look at more days than I have to.
I gained 3 lbs in ONE WEEK ppl.
Thanks "friends" for the treats.
Turns out my sister was right about you. You just wanted to fatten me up.
I have protein and ketones in my urine AGAIN.
They think it might be an infection.
As if I'm not already diseased enough, right?
I told her about my pubic pressure and she assured me it's normal and gets worse with every kid I have. Then she checked me and realized that baby A's head is practically HANGING out of me.
Okay not really hanging out, but almost.
She said if I were to feel down there, I could feel his head easily.
Cervix is still closed but she said I should try to stay laying down as much as possible to avoid the baby's head getting any lower and causing more pressure.
She said my labor will be super quick since he doesn't have far to go.
Uhmm...haven't I been telling them that for WEEKS?!
So Lydianne, I read that article you linked and
OH MY GOSH
That is my pain to a T.
I'm gonna try the suggestion.
If My Lover won't dilate me, maybe he'll "wishbone" me!
As I got dressed to leave the room, I looked at my frazzled face in the mirror.
No wonder she felt sorry for me.
I am FALLING APART mentally and physically.
I'm so glad this is almost over...
PS...I reread my post from yesterday and
OH MY GOSH!!
Why didn't anyone tell me I sound like a freakin DRUNK?
Everything was spelled wrong.
Everything was spelled wrong.
Parenthesis? WTC was I smokin? Thanks Bonnie for pointing that out.
I think my brain is officially mashed potatoes.
Please don't judge me.