I found out yesterday that Jamie Lynn Spears has the same due date as I do. Have you seen pictures of her pregnant? They don't exist because she doesn't LOOK pregnant and she's the same as me. Whatever! I guess I should take into consideration she's like 12 (not really) and has never had a baby. While I was googling "Pregnant Jamie Lynn" this picture popped up. I liked it so I stole it to show you :) It's me with blonde hair except my boobs extend up under my armpits and I have nipples :)
While looking through the mail yesterday I found a letter to myself from my mother. Yes, she mailed it with a stamp and all even though she could have just handed it to me. I took a picture of the front because it's so cute! She just sent it to cheer me up because she knows how sad I've been feeling lately being locked up in my cave with the door shut so no one can hear or see me crying my eyes out. Speaking of being sad...I like most all of Carrie Underwood's songs but lately I've been playing "So Small" to make me cry some more. It feels good to get it out and the words make me feel better. About the mountain I'm climbing is really just a grain of sand and that Love is all that matters and when you figure that out, everything else seems so small. It's true. This will be over before we know it. I talked to Austin on the phone last night and I felt so sad for him. He has the worst "room" if that's what you wanna call it. Some how everyone else got real dorm like rooms and he got a storage shed transformed into a "room" because they ran out or regular rooms. He only has a spring bed, no chair, or desk, no windows or fridge or anything. He hates it. He was upset yesterday because they let everyone out early and most of the guys went home to their families or to their nice rooms and he didn't have anything to go home to. I know it's hard for me here, but at least I have parts of our family with me to keep me happy and I just think of how he has nothing there. He can't even check the internet to see pictures or read my blog :( I just miss him so much and I think he really needs a hug but I'm not there to give him one. I hope things get better for him soon and once they weed out most of the guys he'll be upgraded to a better room. I just keep praying for him that he will be able to stay focused on his job there and not worry about us too much. I know he does and I don't want to make things worse for him by being whiney and blah every time I talk to him.
Kora has been letting her hair grow out and last night when I had my hair up like this, she brought me a hair band to do the same to hers. It was the first time in a LONG time she's been able to put all of it up in ONE big piggy. She was so proud and when she looked in the mirror she said, "WOW! I look JUST like you mom!" It made my heart smile. I never imagined there would be anyone who wanted to look just like me. Especially right now, but hearing Kora say that with the utmost excitement made me feel better about myself. She sees past all my flaws that I like to point out.