my heart is over flowing.

just so you know,

i'm not blogging.

contrary to what this may look like.

but i'm AM,

just peeking in just to show you something

AmAzInG.

this.

(you better click that link or else!)

right there.

and all of the other 1209218392849034 kajillion people

who have prayed for my family,

bought or made us dinner,

made us laugh,

watched my kids,

brought me treats,

checked in on me through texts, msg's, or phone calls,

played "dad",

sent packages to my Lover,

sent me sweet cards and letters,

and much much more.

all those people who have done things

to make life just THAT much easier.

to keep our minds away from sad things.

those people,

are what helped me through this deployment.

i love you.

you know who you are.

the countdown is on friends.

it. is. ON.

(no i mean it. like literally. it will be.)

wish me luck.

oh.

and a good hair day.

*wink*

and if you're lucky,

i might have

an ExTrAOrDiNaRy slide show

for you

to recap the reunion greatness.

!!OoOOoOooOoOO!!

i can't say what i wanna say.

i told myself i wasn't going to blog this week.

and i'm not.

except i am, just to tell you this...

i'm not going to blog this week.

or maybe next week either.

or maybe ever again.

wanna know why?

because i can.

sometimes when i get really overwhelmed with life

or tired

or sick of sick kids

orrrrrrr

maybe when i'm on the last couple weeks

of being a single mom for the last 7 months

and i'm frickin tired of doing everything,

i get seriously lost in deep thoughts.

not deep toots.

and i start over analyzing everything.

including my blog(zzzzzz).

and then i get annoyed at it.

and i don't wanna be a part of this annoying thing anymore.

and THAT, my friends,

is when i know it's time to take a break from it.

so like the title of this post says,

i can't say what i wanna say.

because i'm holy.

*snort*

(even though i say it in real life sometimes)

but for you?

respect.

and i'll "choose my words"

like mia always tells me to do.

if you happen to crave a dollop of my hilariousness

you can always find me on facebook.

peace out until then, friends.