My dear sweet Jakob,
Exactly 8 years ago "to the date" (I really mean it this time!!) I was in the hospital holding my brand new "Baby Jake". You had the worst cone head in the history of cone heads and your father was seriously concerned about it. He didn't think it would go away! Well, it DID and by the time we left the hospital you looked just like this...
Notice you were sportin the faux hawk before most of the world was and NOT on purpose, it did that by itself!! Even several days later you still had it spiked up. We couldn't keep it down even if we tried! You were the MOST beautiful baby boy I had ever seen in my life. I would let you sleep on my chest or next to me in the bed and no matter how tired and exhausted I was, I couldn't stop from staring at you and your perfect little self. You were a great baby! You slept through the night by 6 weeks and you never cried unless you really needed something.
On your first birthday, we had a sports themed cake and a smaller football cake just for you to tear into. You looked at us like we were crazy and then asked for a fork! You were a clean baby and did NOT like to be dirty, not even for fun!
Before there was a Kora, a Miah or even a baby Isaak, there was only you. We were the best of friends and we did everything together. I loved that time with you and I often miss it and all the fun things we did together, just you and me. You were so sweet and fun. Every day was an adventure.
You loved to play outside and in the garage with Dad. Remember when I worked at Outback and you would stay with dad all night? First you'd watch Lion King while you laid on Dad when he came home from work and napped on the couch. You never got tired of that movie and you were always scared of the part where Scar was singing. After Dad's nap and your movie, you both would go outside to workout. Well, DAD would workout and you would just get into all the things in the garage that you shouldn't! You were such a little man!
Remember when you were about a year old and you decided that you weren't going to stay in your crib anymore? We fought with you for SO long for SO many nights until Dad and I decided to give up on that fight and just let you sleep with us. I loved having you in our bed between us. It reminded me of when you were little and I stared at you as you slept. I always wondered what you were dreaming about.
You always loved all the different characters and television shows with super hero's. Remember your 3rd birthday when Aunt Mimi and Uncle David arranged for the REAL Spiderman to surprise you? Seeing your face fill with excitement was one of my favorite and most memorable moments. I'll never forget how happy you were!
Okay, I have to admit...I know you're 8 now and you don't want to talk about it, but I SO miss getting you chocky milk when you were little. I think that's about ALL you drank as you sat there with your tag on your blankie and watched your favorite shows!! I was so sad when your asking for some chocky started to fade away and you became a big boy.
You know what? You've always been so much older to me than what you really were. You have such an old soul with such a grownup and mature personality. I think that's why all of the aunts, uncles and grandparents enjoy being around you so much. You can carry on a conversation with a 65 year old man almost easier than you can with a kid your own age! Especially if you're talking about military stuff!!
Sometimes it seems as if you're growing up TOO fast. I couldn't believe it when you started Kindergarten! Where did the time go? Remember when you came home from your first day of school and you said to me, "Guess what Mom!!!?? It was EVERYONE'S first day of school!!" Before I knew it, you were done with Kindergarten and ready to start a new year.
Now you're 8 and you're entering the age of accountability. In one week you'll be baptized which is CrAzY to me. Where did my baby Jake go? When did you become so grownup? When did you become such a great brother and helper to Kora and Miah and such a wonderful example to them? When did you start looking JUST like Dad, almost like a little clone? I still remember being in the hospital bed, holding you and kissing your tiny hands and then all of a sudden, you're big now.
I miss you SO much as my little guy, but I'm excited about what the future holds for you. Just last week you brought home this flower from school with your goals on it. In the middle is written what you want to be and on the petals are written the things you need to do to reach your goal. I have no doubt that all your dreams will come true. I know I'm hard on you at times, but it's only because I want SO much for you. I know your potential Jakob and I KNOW you were placed on this earth to become something AMAZING. I just feel SO thankful that I was chosen to be your mom. I want you to know that Dad and I will ALWAYS be on your side and help you to reach your goals, no matter WHAT. Thank you for being such a great kid and Happy Birthday Bubba,
I LOVE YOU.