Thursday, July 17, 2008

Only just a minute for some JUNK!

1. I REALLY hope my blog readers haven't written me off due to my lack of posting each day and my lack of interesting stories. I'm here, really I am. I'm reading all your blogs but I usually only have one hand available to type with so I don't comment. I'll try to do better. FORGIVE ME!!!

2. I'm am HATING my body right now. I know I'm just being extremely impatient (it's only been a month) but I cannot stand looking in the mirror at this person who is NOT ME. I swore I wouldn't buy "intermediate" clothes for that awkward in between stage but I'm so sick of wearing maternity that I caved and went shopping for just a FEW items that I can live in. Bad idea. That made me feel even WORSE because I would pick stuff out that would normally look cute, hold it up thinking it LOOKED like my size, only to try it on and see that it's not my NEW size and looks horrible on this new body. It was so depressing. I don't wanna spend a lot on these in between clothes so everything that's cheap looks terrible. Cheap jeans give me mom butt and even more so with this larger butt I'm luggin around. I had all the kids with me when I went and thankfully they were very good and helpful in getting me new sizes, but they were also painfully honest about how things looked on me, Jake especially. I think he felt bad being so honest because he kept hugging me and saying, "I'm sorry mom." Either that or he just felt bad that I was so chubby. The whole trip was a waste of time. I ended up buying one pair of mom butt jeans, a dress that I can't wear yet until I lose weight, and a black t-shirt that's basically a maternity shirt only not in the maternity section. Big whoop. I felt so crappy afterwards I wanted to go home and puke a few times or maybe just run on the tread mill a few hours. Instead I had a protein shake and shaved my legs.

3. I have so much to do and so little time. The good thing is, when I talked to Austin about all my stresses with the move, he reminded me that these are GOOD things to be stressed about because we ARE moving. He's right, I need to think more positively about everything and just be happy about the future!

4. Isaak is getting on more of a schedule at night which is helpful. He doesn't sleep through the night of course, not even close, but having something I can KINDA rely on as far as wake up times and feedings feels good.

5. I had to go to the Joint Reserve Base today to add Isaak to our insurance. I had 30 days to get it done and BOY did those 30 days fly by. My mom kept the kids and I left at 6am to avoid traffic and a long wait at the ID office (last time we were there we waited for 2 hrs). It's in far west Fort Worth so it was over an hour drive there only for the little Navy guy to punch about 3 keys on the keyboard and enter him in. WHY couldn't I take care of this over the phone?? WHY did they make me come in when I have a NEWBORN and I'm sleep deprived? Who knows, but it's done and I can mark that off my list.

6. I'm taking Roscoe to the vet today to get tranquilizers for his ride to VA. He doesn't do well in the car and just pants and shakes so he needs meds to keep him calm.

7. GOSH...I'm boring aren't I? At least I'm not as bad as Raschel...(hehe)

12 comments:

Sandra said...

You mean you have a brand new baby and suddenly you don't have as much time to blog? C'mon, wonderwoman!

You don't have to appologize - I get it! When Lola was born, I had to spend the first 4 weeks of her life sewing princess costumes to pay for a trip to Disneyland that we HAD to take for a family reunion. And when we moved out of our last house, it took me over a month to pack and get out. Lola was only 3 months old and we were 2 whole weeks past our move out date. I wish I could fly out there to help ya!

Lindsay said...

jeez louise.... what a comPLAINER!!! you should be thankful for all this good stuff that's happened, turkey bird!!! i mean, you're NOT pregnant anymore so you get to snuggle with your baby, you'll be moving to where austin is in like 2 1/2 weeks AND you're not like 300 lb. person who just gave birth... oh no!! a size 12 or 14!!! how terrible!!! most women would KILL to be that right after pregnancy. Get over it, whiney. sorry.. but you needed this.

deanna said...

Jessica, I feel your pain about the clothing struggle. I'm right there with you. No worries, you'll get back to where you want to be.

Valinda said...

I'm glad you took the minute to keep us posted. :)

Tatiana said...

Don't be so hard on yourself. You have four kids; one being a newborn. I'm still working on getting my weight off from my first. After a year, I finally lost the last three kids weight, now I'm working on the first. You can do it. You're a skinny minnie anyway!! Brent lost 65 lbs. in 90 days, surely you can lose those 10-15 lbs. in a few months. Give yourself some time and worry about the important things, like getting some rest.

the ragsdales said...

lol. rude. i can imagine what you're going through w/ clothes and stuff...I hate shopping, but I'd hate it even more right after the baby. I'm already hating thinking about that right now. But, whenever I see a woman w/ a little extra chub and she's carrying a sweet baby, I don't even think twice about it. I'm just glad mine will be born towards winter and i'll be able to cover up a lot. I've seen pictures of you though (ok, only the one you posted...) and i never thought you looked chubby at all. actually, i thought you looked GREAT! But, I know it's an emotional thing that every one goes through. And, I've heard about your body after having the 2 kids...how you lost MORE weight and were tinier than ever and showed people up in swimsuits. So, now, you're just bragging, because you obviously know how to get it all off.

the ragsdales said...

oh. And, with what i learned about the benefits of pepper, maybe you should make it a regular part of your diet regimen. :)

Tara & fam said...

Yeah, your normal. :) I mean, seriously, I'm a 12, and you JUST had a baby, so be easy woman! It will go by in a flash, and before you know it, baby chubs will be a thing of the past! And the military doesn't care if you have a newborn. Been there, done that. You've heard the saying, if they wanted you to have kids, they would have issued them. I can't knock it too much, there is alot of support for families in the military, but there are some areas where it just lacks completely. Good luck, it will get better! Yay for not being pregnant anymore!!!! (oh, sorry Lindsay) ;)

Amanda said...

I so RELATE on the size issue!!! I think it is worth it to get a few cute shirts you like though. That's why I bought a few from fossil. It makes me feel a lot better. Now that my weight loss has slowed down a lot I am depressed too about it:(

Laura said...

You may come fat-clothes shopping in my closet any day you choose.

Janae said...

Boring as hell. Keep trying.

AHHAHAHAHAHA!

And I am a 300 lb person.

SM said...

Chubby is no fun. I would know! :)